The Frustration of Ignorance
I have been working on my school work. I read the material and thought, hey, I am getting this. Then I tried to do the math. Let me answer the first question, no I do not have a problem with math. I did well in calculus. Hell, I liked trig. But I am doing statistical math in my Operations Management class. I F-ing HATE IT!!!! I HATE STATISTICS!!! IF I WANTED TO BE A F-ING STATISTICIAN I WOULD HAVE MAJORED IN STATISTICS. F!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I am fighting with this F-ING math and my numbers make no sense. I look at what my team mates have done, and theirs make more sense. I still cant see how they get there. Breaking down their formulas in excel, I see what they did. I dont get why. WHY? Why do their forumulas not seem to match what is in the book? But they match with each other, so WHAT ARE THEY DOING?????
I am so frustrated. I just want to throw my computer across the room, scream and break into tears. It is frustration that bubbles up from within you. I DON’T UNDERSTAND!! and I don’t understand why I don’t understand. This is the part that makes you want to rip your face off. I hate it! I HATE IT!
I have always had a huge problem with not “getting it.” Maybe this is why I went to Smith College and have become a plethora of useless information. I had a need to understand. I actually get angry when I don’t. It makes me feel incapable and stupid. The ignorance is like being trapped inside a sound proof glass box. You can scream if you want, but it doesnt matter. All that you have is this visceral, tangible, physical anger in your own impotence.
I hate feeling incapable.
I am sure I will figure this out tomorrow.
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The picture with your post says it all.
I read somewhere that 86% of all statistics are made up on the spot so maybe that will give you some consolation? Formulas don’t have to match, just sound convincing?
Hopefully you didn’t actually throw your computer. Interesting mental picture, but computers are people too you know.
Thanks. =)
I love my little macbook too much to actually throw it across the room. But I did have to restrain myself from giving it shaken laptop syndrome.
O.M.G. I love that image. I want to actually LOOK like that when I FEEL like that. No, I do. Then people would leave me alone.