Consider this: Overthinking- The Art of Self Sabotage
I have decided that over thinking is the ultimate act of self sabotage. I have found that if I am thoughtful and accept something, I do so with alacrity. I am happy. I am not stressed out. I am accepting. The problem starts when I have reached that level of happiness and then I decide to reconsider.
Why do I do this? Why do I want to go backwards from happiness and acceptance? Why can I not just let bygones be sleeping dogs?
I have found that there is often a moment, a mental cross road, that I will come to where I am given a choice, accept or worry? Acceptance will lead to general happiness and ease. Worry will lead to heart ache and confusion and then hopefully happiness and general ease. Even presented with these two paths, I will often pick the harder of the two. I do think that this is tied into a fear of happiness.
I will think or even discuss an issue and then through this vehicle convince myself that the issue is far too complicated to move forward with. In actuality I have made it to complicated by over thinking. I have taken every situation and possibility and negative thing that could happen and wrap it up in one moment, then it is no surprise when I find the issue to big and I find myself withdrawing.
I have found that I will do this particularly if it is something that I really want but have some reticence tied to it. The reticence of course is fear. Fear of loss, fear of hurt, fear of the unknown, and again fear of happiness.
I need to stop doing this. I can feel myself wanting to run away from happiness because of complications I am creating in my head. And in my creation they become insurmountable, but in reality, they are not concentrated like that. They do not happen all at once and everyone is not going to become the worst versions of themselves. I need to trust in my ability to be happy and not question it because it might be true.
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You right overthinking things is the killer, “letting go” is an art to be learned…
nicely put!